Saturday, August 27, 2011

Summertime in the LBC

Summertime in the LBC

What an experience these last few weeks have been. I wouldn't say things have exactly gone according to plan but I think that everything happens for a reason and while this outcome was not what I planned for, I am excited to take the time for myself to learn and grow as a person. I've realized that I have always been trying to accomplish things too fast. I want to accomplish as much as I can while I am still young, and there is nothing wrong with taking a little bit of time at it. I go into every new challenge expecting to ace it on my first try, but sometimes I think I forget to breathe while I do it. So, now I am going to practice breathing.
So what led me to this realization? A series of challenging events which made me really look at what my plans were and what I needed in my career, and long walks exploring the LBC. Here are some pictures of what I encountered along the way.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Dreaming a New Ending

Do you remember your dreams when you wake up? I'd say 85% of the time I remember everything.
Ever since I was little I’ve had these recurring dreams of people chasing me and trying to kill me, I always feel the strain of trying to run as fast as I possibly can. The strangest part is when my dreams connect together example: one night I had a dream that my mom was shot.. a few days later I had another dream that my mom shot and after I rushed over to her, she assured me that she was ok esp. since she had been shot before and survived and I joked through tears "I know -you're like 50 cent". So anyways in these strange dreams of mine I run for hours and hours always with a man chasing me, most of these dreams end up being involved somehow with my grandparents house. In all of these dreams it either goes until I wake up, and in some dreams I die, and then it starts over again (which I know people always tell me it is impossible for you to die in your own dreams but trust me I do).
So the other night I had one of these dreams, funny thing though. Someone saved me. I've never had someone save me before… Also I don’t usually recognize the people from these dreams (except close family), and I know exactly who was the person that saved me.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Saying Goodbye's

The countdown is on, with now less than a week to go, I am feeling the nerves set in. Last night was my going away party and even though I thought it would be different, it was just like every other party I've thrown. Maybe it is a consequence of my work habits. When I am caught up working I don't make time for anything (unfortunately this sometimes includes eating). This makes it hard to keep close bonds with many friends, and as my birthdays always show (and now my going away party) it means a small turn out, and some awkward periods of standing by myself. There is a lot of people that have made a huge impact on my life, and a lot of people that I am going to miss. I believe in "quality interactions" with people, and there is many people who I may not be necessarily close to, but to me some of the most meaningful interactions came from these people. Especially this summer I have made a lot of new friends. Thank you Calgary and everything you have given me. It is time for me to explore something new and unknown. I just pray it works for the better. Positive thinking, that is what has gotten me though and what will continue to help me grow.